Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Do you ever look at your kids at think, "Wow... they deserve so much better than I am."?  I have been feeling that way a lot lately.  I have been feeling fairly overwhelmed, and feeling, frankly, like I am failing at many things.  My situation hasn't really changed, so why am I feeling this way more often?

I think a major reason is that I am stubborn.  I think that I can do everything on my own, no help.  This is clearly not the case. I have been blessed with a wonderful, hard-working husband.  But he is often gone from home, at work and school.  The kids and I are lucky to see him more than an hour a day during the school year.  So, there are times when I feel very alone. I have come to realize that I need to rely more upon my Savior for His help in raising these amazing Spirits.  I cannot do it alone.  I know that He can and will help me.  I only need to ask, to listen, to obey. I pray that I will be the mother my kids deserve.  That they will remember a fun mom... not one constantly stressed, or short tempered. 

I debated for quite awhile about whether or not to write this post.  But it has been on my mind lots lately.  So please forgive me.  I've heard it helps to write goals down....so here is one of mine.


5 comments:

Us said...

Heather, I know that you're a better mother than you give yourself credit for. Your children love you and you are so good to them.

St. Ella of the Andes said...

Heather, I know I am great and all, but why do you so much want to be like me? Ha! I know what you are feeling, and you assure me that I was a good mom. I know you are fabulous mom. I hope you can come to know that too.

Davenport Family said...

I am so glad you blogged about this! Just last night I prayed about this exact same thing. Oddly enough, Seth is home a lot and is usually only away from us about 3 hours a day, yet I still feel this way. My goal for today was to play with the kids more and I was going to force myself to be a fun Mom today!
I am sure you are an amazing mom. We are all so hard on ourselves when in reality I am sure you are already doing a great job. Just remember you are loved by your Heavenly Father, children and by everyone who knows you. Just keep doing the best you can and turn to Heavenly Father to help you make up what you lack. We love you!!!

Lyndsay Budge said...

You're not alone in feeling that way. I think most moms feel that way at one time or another. I think it's because we want so much for our kids...more than we could ever possibly give but we still beat ourselves up over it, even when it's impossible. I'm sure you're doing an incredible job. Hey, I'm back in Utah...would you like to get together soon?? I should have a vehicle in about a month or so and I'd love to see you again!

Valerie said...

I think that almost every mother feels the same. We love our children so much and want to be perfect, but none of us are or ever will be. It's easier to see the flaws than to see the things we do right. Your kids were sent to you because you are exactly who they need and you are great.