Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Nothing new


We haven't been up to much lately.  Just kinda chillin' at home.  My friend I babysit for was on maternity leave... so I had a break from work.  I thought I would get so much done around the house.  HA!  Funny me :)  Spending time with these 2 is worth a mess, unorganized house.  They are growing way too fast and I don't want to miss a second!  They are pretty great kids... even on ornery days.  They help me smile on days when I want to cry.  They make me cry with happiness (and frustration sometimes).  They melt my heart many times during the day.  Aren't they cute?!

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Do you ever look at your kids at think, "Wow... they deserve so much better than I am."?  I have been feeling that way a lot lately.  I have been feeling fairly overwhelmed, and feeling, frankly, like I am failing at many things.  My situation hasn't really changed, so why am I feeling this way more often?

I think a major reason is that I am stubborn.  I think that I can do everything on my own, no help.  This is clearly not the case. I have been blessed with a wonderful, hard-working husband.  But he is often gone from home, at work and school.  The kids and I are lucky to see him more than an hour a day during the school year.  So, there are times when I feel very alone. I have come to realize that I need to rely more upon my Savior for His help in raising these amazing Spirits.  I cannot do it alone.  I know that He can and will help me.  I only need to ask, to listen, to obey. I pray that I will be the mother my kids deserve.  That they will remember a fun mom... not one constantly stressed, or short tempered. 

I debated for quite awhile about whether or not to write this post.  But it has been on my mind lots lately.  So please forgive me.  I've heard it helps to write goals down....so here is one of mine.